Showing posts with label Damyanti Ghosh. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Damyanti Ghosh. Show all posts

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Leaving



Leaving
By Damyanti Ghosh

Leaving. Such a lonely word, you say.

Leave some thing, some place, some body.

Walking away from something

is sometimes a walk towards something else.

But it can also be a letting go and not stopping.



Letting the breath take you,

carry you with it

for you to float nameless and without address,

without friends or foes,

without relatives, acquaintances.



Just fall, fall, free fall away

and take it from there

to wander in through the window of one house

to float out the door,

to rise and kiss the tree-tops,

to skim the oceans,

to lie suspended over a snow-capped mountain,

to become one with a star or a grain of sand on a white, lonesome beach,

to be carried backwards and forwards upon the waves,

to be a plant drinking in from the soil,

to be a fruit ripe to the bursting,

to be a breast lovingly squeezed in a harem,

to be the gurgle of a baby,

to be the movement of the muscle on a woodcutters arm,

a cake baking in the oven,

a piece of music escaped from a violin,

to be a grandfather’s tears for a grandson lost,

to be grass munched in the mouth of a cow,

to be a soap bubble floating up from a tub of washing,

to be a tale sleeping in a book,

to be a fish born in an aquarium,

to be a taxi-driver chatting with a tourist,

to be a mother slapping her boy,

to be the toy he has lost,

to be the words in the mouth of a poet,

to be the honey in a hive and the bee that carries it there,

to be the prey and the predator,

to be fire and water, sleep and awakening.



Leaving is not a lonely word.

It is the joy of being alone, of being one,

of being all, and also nothingness.


© 2009 Damyanti Ghosh

Listen to this poem:


Damyanti Ghosh is an established freelance writer, writing for various websites and magazines, who is now trying to figure out a way to step into fiction: a field she has touched before, but never professionally. She has written poetry for quite some time now, and hopes to become a writer some day: not just a published author, but a real writer in the truest sense of the word.


Damyanti's blogs:
http://amloki.blogspot.com
http://damyantiwrites.wordpress.com

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

One Last Time


One Last Time
by Damyanti Ghosh

Think black thoughts,
black-sad, sad-black,
the soothing color of oblivion.

Take yourself out on a ride,
ride on air, on emptiness,
sit on your mind's eye.

Become the stubbed out
butt-end of a cigarette
spiraling down
from hundreds of floors,
down, down, down,
always down.

Twirl in the air,
enjoy the breeze, hope
for a fanning of the fire
that was stamped out of you
some time ago.

Though it is not the fire
to hoist a hot-air balloon,
it is still a little warmth,
a flickering of life
before you fall, softly,
with a whisper,

on concre
te slabs.

© 2009 Damyanti Ghosh

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Damyanti Ghosh: These lines came to from the picture, which I was a using as a writing prompt. The idea was to try and imagine the free-fall of a suicidal jump, the haze and the confused thoughts which lead to a harsh, violent end.

Damyanti Ghosh is an established freelance writer, writing for various websites and magazines, who is now trying to figure out a way to step into fiction: a field she has touched before, but never professionally. She has written poetry for quite some time now, and hopes to become a writer some day: not just a published author, but a real writer in the truest sense of the word.


Damyanti's blogs:
http://amloki.blogspot.com
http://damyantiwrites.wordpress.com

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

"Ruth's Heart" by Damyanti Ghosh


Ruth’s Heart
By Damyanti Ghosh

Always hearts, all the hearts, and nothing but the hearts will do. An anthem for Ruth, the ruthless. Golden locks, a knowing, pouting smile, and a body to match, Ruth had ammunition. Her eyes were cold, frozen fish cold, but with a single blow of her glance she could land a heart on her palm, fluttering, helpless, beating fast, calling her name, begging for mercy.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

"The Passing" by Damyanti Ghosh

The Passing
by Damyanti Ghosh


She has woken up early today, feeling strangely empty. She buries her face further into the pillow and reaches out for that familiar feeling, the feeling that makes her tremble and spill out in tears every time she thinks of the day they'd met for the last time. 
     He had come into town just that morning, tired, jet-lagged. She had waited for him at a coffee-shop. When he came in she had made as if to rise, and he had bent to kiss her, but not quite made it. In the end they'd both sat down, not touching.
    She can't remember what they talked about, only that she was getting late, the strawberry slush she'd ordered was freezing her lips, and she was hugging her arms. He'd never driven back to the airport immediately after driving into town from it, he'd said, and offered to drop her to the airport where she was going to receive her fiancĂ©. 
    He'd joked about how it was he who should have been the one taking her on her first flight out of the country, but he was at least delivering her to the man who would. He was wearing spectacles instead of the usual contacts, and she'd been conscious of how they must look like to others, her twenty-three years against his fifty-six. 
   She remembers the sun on his tousled, peppery hair, his white shirt, the people at the airport, his wave as he walked away, how she had met her fiancĂ© with a kiss. All of that. 
   But try as she might, she cannot recapture that one thing she's striven so long to forget: that surge of pain, that acute awareness of him that has always pushed against her heart. And just like that, he is gone.


© 2008 Damyanti Ghosh


Creative process: Damyanti Ghosh : I have often seen the moment of falling in love depicted accurately - I wanted to capture the moment of falling out of love, which is subtler. I do not know if it is a process or a moment. It could be a process leading up to a moment.

I usually describe the film inside my head as I write. Most of the time it seems to be done by my pen, not my brain, so there is no particular creative thought process as such. The image that set this particular film running was the memory of a girl sitting alone at a coffee-shop, hugging herself.


Damyanti Ghosh is an established freelance writer, writing for various websites and magazines, who is now trying to figure out a way to step into fiction: a field she has touched before, but never professionally. She has written poetry for quite some time now, and hopes to become a writer some day: not just a published author, but a real writer in the truest sense of the word.


Damyanti's blogs:
http://amloki.blogspot.com
http://damyantiwrites.wordpress.com

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Short fiction from Damyanti Ghosh

Results of some prose exercises:


The Summer Storm

Robert's wife has no idea when the light blue sky has turned a threatening, sombre gray-black. As if someone has gone and smeared a lot of chimney-soot on its face, she says to herself, her hand automatically reaching up to touch her own. Laying there on the grass with the sooty sky bearing down on her, she thinks of Robert. She thinks of his arms as he had held her last summer in this very meadow, how they'd made love, laughed, fed each other from the small basket she'd brought along, the mingling smells of a thousand honeysuckles around them.
    She has gone back in time, dreaming, when a movement catches her eye: a foal at the water's edge, drinking from the small brook, all by itself. She wonders where its mother is. She decides it is probably time she returns home, to the empty house Robert has left her in, to follow that harlot he'd met at the fair: the doctor's daughter, fair-haired, light-skinned, tall, and slim - everything Martha is not.
    Martha has become Poor Martha, Poor dear Martha. Martha, the wronged, abandoned wife. Every eye in the village has touched her with silent but heavy sympathy as she's trudged her fat belly on swollen legs to and from the market, to fetch milk, or to order new clothes when the old ones did not fit any more.
    Anything, dear God, but pity. Anything, but another "Poor dear". Martha, her jaw clenched, thinks of how well she has put a stop to all that today. She gets up, brushes off the grass from her dress. As she walks over to the brook, the foal skitters away, neighing.
    She takes one last look at the bundle under the stone. A big, fat raindrop falls on her arm just then, but she takes no notice. They will find it soon enough, she thinks, as she looks at the bits of cloth flowing out from under the smooth stone she's chosen. Mrs. Brown will recognize the mittens and the cap for "Martha's poor baby." Mrs. Kilshaw would see the old baby quilt she handed down for the "poor fatherless child." What a waste, really.
    But the proud father is returning today and the house would be empty no more. He will ask for his son, she is sure, before he asks for forgiveness. Better walk down to the village then, it is almost time he is here. She can always send someone back to fetch his darling blue-white son from the brook.
    The storm gathers and begins to blow in earnest, the rain soaking Martha so she looks as if she has never been dry. On her hair and clothes and skin the rain flows in rivulets, making it seem like she is crying from all the parts of her body but her eyes. She hums under her breath, and walks like a woman on a stroll in the meadows, taking in the smells of summer.

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Anna's Day

Anna is tired, so for dinner she throws together some pasta, loving its white body, its rough-smooth texture. She slurps in a strand, checking if it is al dente, burning her tongue. She thinks of the things she did today, the uniforms, the scrubbing rooms, the conversations. She sets the pasta to drain and stirs up the sauce, the red tomatoes reminding her of the blotches on the white towels as the little girl bled on her table. Anna's table.
    The girl bled, bled, bled, making the nurses scurry here and scurry there, looking for clips, more towels. But Anna had cut into the wrong place, a main artery, so near the heart that it would pump blood, keep pumping it out, unaware of the blood spilled.
    Anna makes herself turn to the pasta, now drained, white, but no longer inviting, the spaghetti strands flowing like bloodless veins. They have gelled into a gooey mess, sticky-gooey, and the pale white looks too much like the white girl's white face, and the whiteness of her father as colour drained out of him.
    Anna mixes the sauce into the pasta, stirring it slowly, willing it back to life, then gives up. She picks up the whole lot, chucks it into the bin. She switches off the kitchen light, which has begun to give her a headache, and walks out towards the patio to have a drink.


© 2008 Damyanti Ghosh

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Creative processDamyanti Ghosh : These were the result of writing exercises given out by Sharon Bakar. In both of these, the first sentence comes from a series of writing prompts. This sentence then becomes the first line of your piece.

For instance, for Anna's Day, the prompts were:
A feeling: Tired
A colour: White
A food: Pasta
A sound: Honk
A texture: Rough

Something you've said or thought today: Have a nice vacation

An object you've handled: Cell phone

The name of a person you know or have known: Anna

I was then asked to write a sentence using as many of the words as possible, with a minimum of three.

This was my sentence:

Anna is tired, so for dinner she throws together some pasta, loving its white body, its rough-smooth texture.

I guess my brain kind of short-circuited a bit, trying to connect disparate things. The prompt words used for The Summer Storm story were: wife, light blue, sombre. I basically got the stories down in speed-writing bursts of ten minutes each, and then polished and cut out the excess.

Damyanti Ghosh is an established freelance writer, writing for various websites and magazines, who is now trying to figure out a way to step into fiction: a field she has touched before, but never professionally. She has written poetry for quite some time now, and hopes to become a writer some day: not just a published author, but a real writer in the truest sense of the word.


Damyanti's blogs:
http://amloki.blogspot.com
http://damyantiwrites.wordpress.com

Damyanti also writes poems. Read two of them here.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Two poems by Damyanti Ghosh


Play with me

by Damyanti Ghosh


Talking to you is like walking naked in the eastern breeze
I feel your touch in places I have never known existed.
Would you play with me, be my sun on this stretch of grass?

Let the call of the eagle hold the season in trance
while sunbeams play and dance to a silent song.

Close your eyes in an orange haze of touch and skin,
as clouds tease each other on the breath of May
and blackbirds play this summer noon.

Play with my feet, as I raise them one by one
play, play on the legs, play where they join,
play with my breasts, they wait upturned, plant your seed
in my waiting womb, play with me as that smile plays
on your mouth, let it play on my body, my earthen skin.

I am talking to you now, walking naked in the eastern breeze,
your smile touching me in places I have never known existed.


© 2008 Damyanti Ghosh


Creative processDamyanti Ghosh: I mostly took down what the woman in the image prompt started dictating to me….this is the first draft, and I have not changed it much from there. The image prompt was taken from here.

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Waiting

by Damyanti Ghosh


I thought you were falling in love with me, death.

Your kisses on my nape, your breath in my hair, are quivering still.

I sought the hollow of your breast, a cave of ice, where I could nestle, undisturbed, under warm quilted snow, for a slumber that knows no awakening.

I have looked to you, death, and you have looked at me for all the years that we stayed, surrounded by this blue haze, this illusion of certainty.

Swollen and sore, longing for you, my death, my body laid, warm, in waiting.

It sought your touch.

But my body was never on your mind, and it stayed, steady, breathing, white, like a song frozen on your lips.

You looked at me and I looked to you, laden with the weight of a gaze held too long.

You were once so near, I could have reached out and touched your skin, tender and shriveled as an autumn leaf.

I waited, looking over my shoulder, waiting for you to come nearer, but softly, death, you left, just as you had come, crept out of my veins in stealth.

I am tired, death, waiting, and still awake.

© 2008 Damyanti Ghosh


Creative process: Damyanti: This whole piece was written at a sitting the first thing in the morning, and while writing it I was not sure I was writing prose or poetry, but I guess it has turned out to be bit of both. I always write in a kind of trance, so am not sure there was any thinking behind this, only that I looked at the image prompt and the first line came to me. I simply took it from there.


Damyanti Ghosh is an established freelance writer, writing for various websites and magazines, who is now trying to figure out a way to step into fiction: a field she has touched before, but never professionally. She has written poetry for quite some time now, and hopes to become a writer some day: not just a published author, but a real writer in the truest sense of the word.


Damyanti's blogs:
http://amloki.blogspot.com
http://damyantiwrites.wordpress.com
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